What I Hid From God, Really? | Devotional #38


Devotional:

September 7, 2026

Hey Reader,

This year I started mock homeschooling, since Maximus starts Kindergarten next year. I wanted to get us into a system to set us up for success.

I enjoy teaching my boys and creating curriculum. It was literally my job at Disney before I became a mom. So this oftentimes feels like a dream.

But I get scared. I get worried. I wonder if I am making the right choices for them.

And you know what I've been doing with that?

Did you guess taking it to God? Maybe with a bit of an eye roll?

Well, would it surprise you if I told you I was actually hiding it?

This past weekend I was really struggling, recognizing my need to step back from a lot of what I've built in order to give my boys what they need and deserve.

Being a stay-at-home mom without childcare, with a husband who works full-time out of the house and runs a side business to help support us while I stay home, I am on the clock from the moment my boys wake up until my husband walks in the door.

And lately? It has been around 5:00 a.m. until 5:30 p.m. I try my best to give them quiet time, but they're so grumpy sometimes after it's almost not worth it.

So this weekend, as we drove to Legoland for their Halloween event, Mike asked me, "How are you?"

And I told him I was refusing to answer the question.

Truthfully, he'd texted me that same question twice the day before, and I'd ignored both messages and moved on to something else.

But then he called me out for suppressing my emotions. Something I tell other people not to do.

It didn't feel that way to me, though. I was holding on to them until I could take them to God. I just hadn't had the chance to yet.

And that was my reminder: I have to ask for it.

Even if someone gets frustrated with me. Even if it makes me feel like I shouldn't need five minutes with God.

I still need God.

I sometimes need the reminder, too. I never want you to think I'm perfect... not in how I mother, not in my marriage, not in my relationship with God.

I am far beyond perfect.

I am a weary mom who wants to be connected to God, wants to enjoy mom life, and has a deep desire to work on something she's passionate about.

"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light." Matthew 11:28–30 (NIV)

When you follow Jesus and have faith, it doesn't mean you stop being weary…

It simply means you have someone who will sit with you and listen.

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Hi, I’m Ash. Mom of two, wife, and completely obsessed with Jesus. I left my career at Disney to stay home with my kids. Now, I make them magical material that gets them closer to God. If you want access to our free monthly lesson plans, subscribe now!

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